You cannot rape god without a form. You will necessarily violate another living being with the same I you are. Is that really what you think will make anyone in any way better off? In any case, if such thoughts cause you problems (or think they may cause harm), a professional psychotherapist is a better choice to talk to about it than me. But yeah, ignorance gets inherited, not in genes but by upbringing and the rest of social influences. Thankfully, truth does not change and is always accessible to be known.