Stalking Existence
Existence is self-evident. But in order to arrive at the omnipresent and infinite you have to stalk it. You must trace the specific causal stream that resulted in particular circumstances of this very moment back to its ultimate origin. It goes without saying that your starting point cannot be anything else than your individual (experience of) life as it is right here and now.
Therefore, in order to stalk existence you have to acknowledge all influences that shaped you. From affirmative reinforcement of common-interest groups you are or were part of, through formative events of familial influence whether as an active factor or simply by being absent, all the way to everything that happened to you during your stay in your particular gestation environment (be it your mother’s womb or other). And beyond.
Despite what people who have gripes with science think, science is the best pointer to the absolute. While striving as hard as possible to eliminate any preconceived metaphysical bias (particularly that of the existence of the absolute), scientific observations stubbornly paint a very hard-core and uncompromising non-dual picture of (palpable) reality. Aside from demonstrating that even the world of the relative is fundamentally unified, science with utmost success confirmed times and again that the absolute is, indeed, “neither this, nor that.”
But you don’t really need to dig into history, biology, chemistry or physics to see that we are products of our environment and are in a feedback loop interaction with it. There’s no particular need for an in-depth cosmology exploration to discover that there’s no known process in the world of phenomena that would actually create or destroy anything. And you certainly don’t need any of that to see that reality is empty of substance and essence.
Traditionally, one would say to honor one’s mother and father and acknowledge the dependent origination of phenomena because it leads to a healthy life in all of its walks. So, even though a deeper scientific knowledge may be revealing and confirm traditional formulations as multilayered metaphors far beyond their literal meaning, in fact it’s enough to observe the everyday life and accept the actual observations.
In other words, it does not matter how far I can see. Whether the horizon is the Dome of the Sky or I gaze billions years back in time, what matters is that that view is clear. With no self-deception. Then it becomes obvious that I can really only know the self-evident and axiomatic, that which does not require any proof or argument, that which I am. Of course, I can doubt even that. But good luck trying to conceive existence of non-existence or aspiring to remove existence from being.
Existence simply cannot not be. And it obviously is. Stepping outside of it leads into the thick of its center.
Thus, I am.
