Now I'll express myself in spiritual mumbo-jumbo, so please bear with me for a moment. I went through your articles and it seems to me that you "cleared the first hurdle" and crossed past the "veil" into the "mental realm". But since you are still in the "realm of forms", you associate God with his creative aspect.

So, if you feel like continuing your journey, you have to throw away all concepts and cross the "abyss" into the "formless causal realm". Just always bear in mind that this realm is rather treacherous. Just for illustration, I met many Buddhists who (since they are obsessed with "emptiness of form") reached this "place" and were convinced that they are done. It's quite understandable because there's no-thing, only infinite space and consciousness.

However, even upon reaching this "realm" one still has to make one more step; one has to ask "Who am I, really?" one last time. Yet, people who enter this realm are, so to speak, "deaf" to all advice from outside (remember -- no concepts), so anyone who enters there is on their own. Best to not dwell there and pass through as quickly as possible.

Then again, you also may be already there, in which case I expect that my words won't "reach" you :P