I call that rationalization. You may as well have valid reason to be mindlessly creative and objectified and argue in favor of that. That would be at least coherent with your observation. You clearly don't like nature's indifference (which I would simply label impartiality or lack of bias) and blame nature for your discomfort. But each and every (higher-level) psychological response to external stimuli is a matter of choice. So, to feel alienated is merely your choice.