Ah, my bad — your sarcasm was lost on me. I’m glad we are on the same page when it comes to the “level of spiritual nature”, and yes, we are in very similar economic circumstances, too. I could basically copy-paste your description.

As for the “concentration camp scenario”, again, I can only agree — no one knows how they will react until the proverbial hits the fan. And I must admit, my current circumstances are faaar from resembling a concentration camp.

Personally, I don’t consider myself righteous, I’m not even sure what that means. I just know what I know, and even though circumstances may make me lower my head in the end (who knows), to me it would only mean that I have chosen myself before truth. It would tell me that I’m still selfish and a coward — and sadly (or better said fortunately) rationalizations don’t work on me anymore. Then again, I may also stand my ground. Who knows. Ironically, I’m in a middle of such “fight” right now.

I’m not surprised, you find it ironical that I seem to try to “change the world” through Medium when so many people need actual physical help. That’s something with which I struggled, too. Then again, I saw people with a lot more resources and skills than I have at my disposal trying to alleviate that existential pain you talk about, only to see their efforts vanish in a bottomless pit. Obviously, that approach solves nothing in the end. While people think the way they do, it’s all a vain struggle. Pissing against the wind.

But to be completely honest, I already lost my illusion (and drive) that I may “save” someone with my articles (on top of it, everyone has to save themselves alone). I just do what I feel like doing. While I still can.